Friday, March 20, 2009

i'm not sure why...

but i have been so moody. it's not that time.. the only thing i can think of is that i might be homesick.
i love it here, i really do. i love daniel and his family, they are all wonderful... but the littlest thing makes me so mad! i've always had a short fuse it seems like, and as i get older, it gets shorter. i hate that because i take things out on daniel, and he gets upset (of course).. and i can only apologize so much.

it's just.. i miss lisa, my mom, and the kids terribly. i'm not 15 minutes away anymore, and believe me, i thought a LOT about that before i came here. i would love to just go visit them, but it's not that easy now.
and another thing, i could've stayed in west virginia, and if i would have put up a fight, i'm sure daniel would have stayed longer. BUT i know that coming here made him happy. and that's very important to me. also, if i would've stayed, i don't know that i could have stayed without daniel.

i don't know. i need to pray about it and think more about it, and try to control getting aggrevated and mad over every little thing. maybe just be by myself for a little while everyday will help.

other than that, things are great. i'm still looking for a job, but it'll come in time.

4 comments:

Two Blessings From Above said...

I know how tough it is being away from family. We left Calif. and all my family to move to Florida where we had no family. It was tough once the twins were born too. I pray it gets better for you.

Vic said...

It's all pretty fresh for you right now too (transition). It's always hard to be away from your family (Mine are all a state away), but it's less difficult over time.
Hang in there.

Mommy of a miracle said...

It is hard to be away from family. I am lucky enough to have my family near, but my husband's family is a long ways away and it is really hard on him.

giraffegirl524 said...

thanks guys for the words of encouragement. i really need to get on here more, but i have been in a slump... i got out of the one i was in, now i'm just blah... i don't know why.